Finding Ms. Carol Vessey

You search and you wonder, will there ever be that someone, who will make you feel so strongly in love, like you could do most everything to make that person yours. Something as ridiculously romantic as wearing a knight's armour to offer flowers for that truly special girl.

You thought that it's never goin to happen, and yet the many failed relationships you've had didn't stop you, too many a time you thought that was it, the sparks were flying, the color of the world around you are ever more radiant, you wake every morning with the sun smiling at you, only to find yourself waking up in the middle of a bad dream trapped in a storm and there's no one there, you find yourself freezing in the cold alone.

You wander, cross paths and collide with fate while destiny has eluded you. You are trapped in a TV show desperately wanting to be the leading man, envious of the fact that a fictional character has someone, that someone, Ms. Carol Vessey. A girl who could make you do things like hire a skywriter, shoot a fake MTV of a love song, ride a horse to church and stop a wedding. You want to be Ed Stevens, the bowling alley lawyer who'd do everything for the girl of his dreams.

You are not in love with Carol. You are looking for that someone who will make you feel the way Ed feels for Carol.



Snap out of it.

Reality will always have a way to get its grip on you.

And this time you can wipe that frown off your face.

She's been there all along. The girl of your dreams. That girl in school you've always thought was a knock out, smart and witty. The one you constantly annoyed because that's how you are when you like someone. You thought that would get her attention and in some twisted way you thought that was cute.

You have found that person who makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time.

Someone who promises to watch a million sunsets with you. Someone you'll fall deeply in love with.

You found your Carol Vessey.

[photos from stuckeyville.com from the Ed TVseries starring Tom Cavanagh and Julie Bowen]

Lost

I lost my favorite shirt. :(

If anyone has seen it lying on the road, or sitting on a chair somewhere. I'd be more than happy to give you a reward.

A million thanks, a thank you card, and a hug can be arranged. I will be forever grateful to you, indebted like a pig to a spider. I'll be your slave for a week. Just give me back my shirt! Please.

The first time I saw it, I knew we were made for each other, we had a special connection. Like bonnie and clyde, jeckyl and hyde, susie and geno, Kuya Bodjie and Ate Shenna. Crispin at Basilio (now, where did that came from?) I felt like I was home when I wore it, it embraced me, savoured every sweat I had, and I bought it for just a hundred bucks.

Now it's gone.

Here is the last known photograph of the famed black longsleeves I call Banjo.



Mommy: Burara ka kse kung san' san mo siguro nilalagay!!
Jaymie: San mo ba huling sinuot yun?
Mary: Kuya Jay, wala sa'kin
Erwin: ha? ano?!

Me: Bakit di ka man lang nagsabi, sana nagpakuha muna ako ng picture na suot ka... Iiwan mo din pala ako..

Angel Locsin: Sayang ang cute mo pa naman pag suot mo yun...


Im losing my mind.

Love and Hope

You give meaning to my life, new dreams, new hope. I wish you will stay for good, I wish you will find your home with me. I pray that I can hold on to you forever, never let go. And you will say there's no turning back. "I am yours, and yours alone".

We may have different views on certain things, we'll have different priorities, yet I hope and pray that we'll walk together towards the same direction. We'll have fights, battles, disagreements but know that it's because we're two different persons and I have faith that we were bound to be together when our paths crossed.

I choose to love and accept you for who you are, you are part of my life now, part of who I am. Lend me your hand and I swear I'll keep holding on to it, I'll be with you every step of the way.

Courage, faith, trust.

Love and hope.

That is what you are to me.

A new dawn is breaking at 11: 24 pm