She sent me this via email yesterday... I'm pretty sure it's something you'll all think about... The one that got away...

Read this...
The one that got away
Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal


In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with whom, everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cardsjust didn't fall the right way, I suppose.


I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.


How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.


Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.


You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.


If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.


But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?


Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."


You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

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I've read your *latest blog yesterday...it was good! I was touched. I'd like to think that it is never too late... I don't know yet if you really did get away or will get away. I will always have hope in my heart and I hope that you do too... Hey...I'm going to Boracay, wish me a happy trip there! Gonna stay there for 4 days.Ü

I'm keeping my fingers crossed...

Wish you happiness... wish you a happy trip...

(*latest blog= One and gone article)
(text in bold italics= that's her, talkin' to me.)

rain fell at 1:02 am

One and... Gone

Our eyes met, we held that gaze for a while, one moment that could last forever.
Our lips followed, savouring the feel of our tongues together, not wanting to part ever.
I held your bosom as I gently bid goodbye to your lips and adore your neck, down to your throat.
The touch of your smooth skin, the feel of your body next to mine. Oh how could I resist your love?
I paced slowly, kissed your entire being, memorizing every inch of you.
I felt your warmth, your kiss, your touch, it's you saying I want you, I love you... I want you now...
I slid down, felt the heaven in you... heaven in us...
We were one...
We danced to the rhythm our bodies made.
Souls on fire.
One moment that seemed like eternity.
Our kisses grew more passionately now more than ever we felt in union, in love.
and that spur of a moment, that glimpse of heaven, you whispered... I love you...

I love you back...

We slept in each other's arms, cradled with love never ending.

And I'll wake up alone, you left.

and I'm left chasing the dream...

rain fell at 12:09 pm

...

I spoke to her last night, it still feels weird talkin' to someone who at one point in your life became your life and for all it's meaning, still is...
I miss her. for the nth time I've written it down, screamed it in my mind with the hope that it would reach her. Now she's hearing it from me but its not gonna mean anything anymore.
Because I'm with someone else now, someone probably more deserving than her.
and so is she.
She asks me, " Do you feel that I still love you? "
I couldn't make a word out of it and just say " I guess so..."
and she blurts out, "The feeling is still there, but I don't want to be with you, not now... "
" ... that's why I still can't get myself to commit with him, not until I'm over you... "
" Perhaps someday we'll meet again and when we feel that we still love each other, and the need is still there, we'll be together again. "

Yeah, someday.

I'll stop asking why we can't be together even though we both know how much we still ache for each other.
I'll stop breathing your name, I won't be kissing you in my dreams anymore.

Because you'll be here.

someday.

rain fell at 11:28 pm

Thank you

Thank you for the love you gave me;
and its memories that faded along with it...

Thank you for the kisses we shared;
and the nights I spent tryin' to erase it from
my mind

Thank you for your warm embrace;
and that sad feeling of holding myself alone...

Thank you for the touch of your hand;
and for making me realize how sweaty my palm could be

Thank you for the times we made love;
for the times we were one;
and for emptying the void in me.

Thank you for walking out the door
and for leaving it open

for love to come again...

rain fell at 11:56 pm

Usapang kalye 2

Makoy: May bago na namang nadagdag sa bokabularyo nitong si Den-den tol
Mokong: Ano yun?
Makoy: Ano daw yung ilalagay sa Character reference pag gagawa ka ng Bio-data.
Denden: E di ano, Tall, dark and handsome. Tama naman di ba?
Mokong: Ano daw? ( in a funny, mocking tone)
Makoy: Tanga!, mali yun. Ang character reference yun yung gulay o prutas o kaya hayop na gustong kainin ng nanay mo nung buntis sya sa iyo. Yun yung kung saan ka ipinaglihi, kaya ka nagkaganyan.
Mokong: Hinde! Character reference, yun yung parang bibliography pag gagawa ka ng term paper. Halimbawa, mahilig ka sa Cartoons kaya cartoons ka din mag-isip, o kaya mahilig ka sa basketbol, dahil mahilig ka magbasa tungkol sa NBA.
Makoy: Ay tama, pinakasafe na sagot dyan, Bible para masabi nila na mabait ka.
Denden: Mali pala yung sinagot namin ni Mike, siya nilagay niya slim, saka tall.

Malamang.

Don't worry after pulled the nonsense crap, I explained to him what Character Reference really was.

:)

[fyi: mokong is yaj's alter ego (not that it matters :)]

rain fell at 11:47 pm

Moving on...

From fio.

I've been wanting to post this beautiful piece but I haven't got the guts to do it back then...

Moving on, two small words I can't ease my way through...

and so I owe my inspiration to this piece...

I've had enough.

No, don't try to reason with me, this is too much.

I will try not to think of you when I wake up in the morning and ask myself if somehow you are also awake. I have my own life to lead and my own life to think of. No, I won't even think of you while I'm eating my lunch wondering if you're doing the same thing, because sooner or later I know you will.

No, never again will I go to the comfort room and lock myself in just to have some privacy to piteously think of you, cry, sing or do some silly things because of you. And no, never will I again think of you last when I go to sleep. Sleep is my only rest, so please don't plague me in my dreams.

I am moving on... ???

I'll try to wake up in the morning and smile and think not of why you left but that once you stayed. And if I feel the need to cry, it will not be for the future that we could have, not for the regrets that I have nor of the anger that i feel, but I will cry because of a love that I never was able to share with the one woman I felt it for. I will cry for the love that was lost, and not for the woman who left.

I will give my affections to any woman who is in need of it, but not my heart because I still am trying to get it back from you. I will give her the love that you never wanted, the kiss that I so longed to give you and the words that once was yours. Worthy or not worthy of it, at least she's here, you're not.

I'll try to hold back the tears when I think you. I'll just try to smile.

I am moving on... I guess, and hoping that the next thing would be letting go...

rain fell at 10:22 am